aku mcm anak tiri sey.. kene mrh hari2 dari abg aku geram kalaaw kadang2 tkp. dhe da msk ITE dhe makin berubah.. selalu merana tu psl kadang2 aku mrh kwn2 aku sekali padahal dorg tk buat ape2.. haiz jahat kn aku? tpi aku cuma kene ingat pada allah maha kuasa...haiz



btw holidae da start skola da tutup!!! :'( tk leh jumpe dhe fhm2 sape ehys... n tk le jumpe Qayyum, Shameel n others :'( dorg pn on last day of skl dorg tk slm aku n ckp bye pt aku... :( Nab n others pn sedih sey mcm aku nie tkde kwn kwn aku semua ignore aku tpi tkp maseh contect lgy pe... cuma members aku je meaning Qay, Syafiqah A n Syafiqah Z, Ismail, Ruhazziq 2 je yg tk sombong ngn aku n ckp bye pt aku... but dosnt mean that who nvr say me gd bye r sombong i nvr say hor okay... ya of cause who nt sombong 2 me is like i treat them like my own family members if dorg family members btl aku kn bgs... hehe... rindu dorg semcm sey...him u noe uh who.. tis is 2 him i wish when holidae had started will u msg Qayyum we hang out okay wif shameel they all like class hangout n i promise that i will study wif u but nvr mind as long u dont broke ur promise wif ur own mother okay.. penting kn ur mom then me okay im not important juz like ur mom. ur mom borm u to earth cause she wants uto study @ achive when u grow up. aku sanggup merana utk mu... k enta kalaw baca ke tk aku post sini n i will ask Qayyum to pass tis msg to u... no nid to be worried ok..bubbye...
n im so sad cause school open another 3 months+ more haiz my fav. teacher mr ang already ritire so sad... but the most im happy i promote to sec 3 but sec 3NT n im angry cause peanut got uh... the sad thing n worrid thing is my class will split into 2 class maybe nt comfirm caus e6 people frm 2NA boys will be coming to sec 3NT next year mak meyebok uh btw i choose 4 my sec 3 subject is EBS(Eliment Of Bussiness Studies) haiz all girls in my class choose that...

i pass all subject accept for my weekest subject math uh!! nvr mind cause i still promoted to sec 3 but 1 person fail but still promote to sec 3 cant mansion.. k thats all a tis post (:

haiz, when qayyum tell him that i like him n he say that he wants me i started to like/listening to 'jiwang' song n idk y i started to like/listen 'jiwang' songs is like the song is related to me n him.. really like 4 example.. 'atas nama cinta' by rossa is related to me n him cause my ex bf i noe him frm the playground near my house n now i hate him but arh.. juz hate him.. i always say him at the bus stop 6.20+ i will always mit him but i ignore him.. n i take 72 n he take bus 27 i juz cn afford him a smile only nt talk to him. stop talking about him aniwayz.. k if he want to study i follow him juz like i say the last 2 post i juz forcus on my studies juz like him.. hopefully i will stead wif him next year..


yeah..., im gonna get my report book tomorow... hehe. i hope my class wont split im gonna miz them if we split cause 6 NA student maybe will cange class to 3NT next year 'alah buat menyemak kalaw pompan tkp ni enam2 lelaki..isk..' haiz dont want to split wif my beloved class 2T1 n next year be 3T1/3T2 n my teacher said that 1 of my classmates will retain in sec 2T again but how? i hope not me n my beloved frens 4 example... Qayum, Syafiq j n the group... n hopefully noy ME! if not i will be classmate wif that guy i mean my 'anak sedara' Haikal. isk he nvr go to skl 4 exam 4 2 days.. idk y he nvr come.. haiz i shoud ask his grandmother but i totally 4 got. haiz. I always STM...

sorie 4 non-malays u cnt read tis...

nari,
memalukn masyarakat sey! jatuh pt skola.. half of my classmates npk aku jatuh.. nasib dhe tk npk.. tpi dhe tahu..psl ade bdk tu bilang... n my other frens semua ketawa kn aku tpi dhe je tk ketawa kn aku... baek dhe.. n 1 of my fren ckp aku jatuh mcm duyung.. hehe... abit funny uh.. n aku benci bile aku jatuh... asl aku jatuh... haiz... pastu aku tk baek sey tuduh abg akt aku. sedih sey.. padahal aku yang salah. mcm mne akun nk mntk maaf pt dhe? btw dhe pn ade ketawa kn aku pe? bkn dhe nk ckp aku okae ke tk? ketawa all the way... sedih sey aku... aku terpaksa hilang kn perasaan malu aku. nasib iman aku kuat.. kalaw tk aku da nagis on the spot... n aku tk nk nagis dpn dhe memalukan aku je...so aku ikot kwn aku lgy satu wani..asl kwn2 aku bwat aku mcm ni aku bole buat ape2 demi kwn baek aku..tpi dorg tk kesian
kn aku sey some je tahu feelings aku cm mane skrg... n aku anggap kwn2 aku mcm adik, kakak n abg akt ku... tpi....dorg bwat aku cm ni.. dorg tk berterima kasih pt aku pn kalaw aku tlg dorg.. some je yg berterima kasih pt aku... aku hrp semua kwn aku satu hari akan berubah aku yakin... insyaallah aku doa kn dorg... kalaw aku tk terlupe.. i will try my best nt 2 forget that important stuff... u noe i'm abit STM(Short Taem Memory) hehe inside my head so many problem to solve... haiz.. stress, sadness n many more cnt name it!

haiz tiba2 suara aku tuka psl aku sakit batok2.. tpi aku sanggup gy skola demi nk jumpe kwn n cikgu2 psl jumaat hari terakhir skola.. gonna miz all my frens include him, cikgu2 di sane...

hidup aku tk penah senang!
selalu susah!
semua(some) kwn aku kadang2 tk kwn aku...:'(
kini tkde org nk peduli kn aku bile aku tiba di rmh semua sibuk dngn kerje sendiri.. my ayah sibik gy kerje bile aku balik dari skola my ayah da keluar gy cari rezeki.. kecian kn dhe..:'( aku cuma bole doa kn my ayah je... tk bole tlg dhe...haiz.. sedih setelah org yg penting pada kite sekeluarga ku pergi tinggal kn kita sekeluaga di dunia.. bertapa sedih nya aku bila dhe tinggal kn kite di dunia psl dhe selalu jge perasaan kite sekeluargaku.. skrg dhe tkd di dunia kite semua kene manage our own life ourself bertapa sedih aku.. kwn aku pn sangup pe buat aku cm gini.. sedih sey.. selalu ingat kn org yg telah pergi.. rindu dhe.. bile eh saya bole melawat dhe di kubur.. aku hrp ayah akn bwk kita sekluarg pergi melawat dhe.. i cnt cantinue tis anymore i juz want to cry... i juz want to hug, kiss, talk 2 her 4 1 last time...:'( juz cnt take it animore now... till here..

sorry 4 some spelling error...

yesterday is sad n happy day. sad cause syafiqah my friend pinch my cheek very painful sey... juz because i step on her shoe :( then qayyum n syafiqah ignore me on the way to the bedok interchange. then the one who talk to me is ruhazziq he talk to me but i ignored him... sorie ruhazziq i dnt mean to do that... cause im to sad to talk to u.. my crush also ignore me.. haiz... nvr mind 4 him.. then they ignore me i straight go home take bus 168 from bedok interchange n in the bus i saw nazura n liyana(1n2)i ignore them n cry. then happy cause at last i tell him the truth that i like him the 1 that help me my abg akt Qayyum... then Qayyum msg me that he(my crush) like me atcually he said that im nice but he say he want study 1st cause he promise his mother that he want study 1st. then i say ok... i let him to continue study i also following him... we will study 2gether.. :))

okay about syafiqah n qayyum misson finish.. we r friends back. hehex nothing uh about us juz misudrstdng.. they juz testing me out. but reallie if want to try me out try loh... hehex.. about my crush hehe... happy loh... who is nt happie when their crush lyke them... hehe

i miss him loh today nt schooling... so bored who is nt bored alwaes stay @ home... but on saturday me, my ciusin(Haziq)my 2nd brother(Yazid) n my sister go BBQ at Aloha Loyang Garden so fun we even slept there for a night we went swimming n play arcade over there we slept the time is 3.00 then 12.30 we order mc donald hahas.. then we eat we wanted to eat then my sister wake up hehe give her eat french fries n 2 bites of mc chicken.. hehe then i force her to sleep n at last she sleep then after we eat we sit at the double deck bed my brother sleep wif my cousin me sleep the other bed but also double deck then i fell asleep on the double deck bed then 4+ my sister cried she wanted to go toilet so i accompany her... after go out from the toilet i juz sit on the bed then my cousin call my name n ask me to accompany him to do wif him to the kitchen to drink water so i accompany him.. then after that we go bck to sleep then my cousin alarm clock alarm at 7 so after that we still sleeping then 7.30 we wake up.. hehe then i;m the 1st person who bath 1st. my bother 2nd n my cousin 3rd after bathing we pack our bags n we play psp n hear music then at 8.40 we eat breakfast we eat nasi lemak my antie cook then my cousin mother reach n fetch us... then i heard they want to go johor but let us alight at our house bus stop... n that is the most memorieble story... hehe till her

BORED!, MENDAK!, HAIZ!

haiz.. today so bored... cause 2morrow no sch cnnt mit my frens then on tue n wed is my exam CPA N MT Oral... then thurs no nid go sch... fri nid to go sch.. mon no nid go sch cnnt mit my crush... he is from my class cnt tell only my true frens noe who is he... hehe.. i tink he also noe but he pretend he dk.. haiz.. so bored cnnt mit my kakak n adik ankt the Syafiqahs... i at home always kene bully by my 1st brother that sch in ITE Yishun hate him very much... he feel like he is the boss of the house... my 2nd brother  that sch in Junyuan Sec he nice to me somtimes n sometimes he like to make jokes. he allow me to borrow his things example. PSP. we share computer. but my 1st brother dosent if he saw me playing him computer he will ask me to off it. haiz.. last time when i am young like my age is 5+ im near wif my 1st brother now cnnt see each other face. when we saw each other face we will fight. he also tried to bully my 2nd brother but cnt cause my 2nd brother cnt fight back. i always in my room wif my younger sister n my 2nd brother.. but when he n my father go out my 1st brother demon come back. my 1st brother also tried not to listen to my father. im poor for my father he cook for us wash our clothes, work to earn money for living, fetch my younger sister.. and etc. he always every day but not saturday n sunday or public holiday he will wake us up when we cnt wake by ourself he let us bath 1st cause we r going to sch. then after he bath he pray n wake my sister up n bath her n wear for her her sch uniform n ride bike to her sch then he return home he go out again ride his motor to pasar by thing to cook then go home cook then after cooking if have time he sleep if not go fetch my sister go home then reach home give my sister food then he sleep then 2.15 he wake up pray n wait for me or my 1st brother or my 2nd brother to reach home then he cn go to work or he will be late for work. then he ride his motor to his work there at changi the place is hunted is beside the OCH creepy he finish work at 11.30p.m so he reach home at 11.30+ so dark sometimes i want to wait for him but i was to sleepy to wait for him so i sleep. morning wake up the same thing... but my 1st brother like dk what is happening in this house haiz. i dk luh. he dnt want to hear my father advice. since he is in primary sch he change alot n in secondary sch he change abit n ITE he behave like a demon... hate him sey.. to be continued...

today is bad day 4 me cause i am sick but i still need to go school cause got exam... haiz... yesterday i vomit 2 times... then after exam stay in school cause it is raining.. then we saw mr hafiz we straigt go out from the school gate.. then Jessie say she want stay back but at last she go back

At last all my friends be friend wif Qayyum again i hope this will nvr happen again i hate when my friends fighting... but 1 boy act to be friends wif Qayyum i hate that so much... I want to talk to the boy face 2 face n ask him why he nvr friend Qayyum if he don't want the good way so then we will do the hard way... i will let him choose if he dosen't want both we will report this to mr ang or hr hafiz the better...haiz...aniwayz yesterday is my 2 end-of-year exam i hope i promoted to sec 3 i don't want to retain way my seconds, minutes, hours, days, months to retain in sec 2 again... haiz.. yeah mdm nurul is coming back!!! i'm so happy but i'm also sad cause' mr ang n mdm zuharia(dk how to spell) is leaving TPSS 4ever :'( on thursday mdm zuharia give us $2 cause she how no time to buy gift 4 me n my fellow classmates. i'm wanted to cry that time but so shy then after MT is P.E no P.E so stay in class play HPn some of my classmates make noise.

On Friday, is exam so the exam start at 8.30 finish at 9.40 the paper is 1hr 10mins so i finish the paper at 9.15 then i sleep cause i see Qayyum n some of my friends sleeping so i join in but i can't sleep but that time i am so sleepy then mr hafiz come in n check if there people talking. then a few minutes ltr mdm ng our math teacher com in n write at the board remainder to bring calculator n constuction set on mon cause mon is our math exam haiz... i think the exam will be so hard 4 me.. but today i'm studying math at the same time bloging. ntg to do then msg Nabilah i alway msg her when i am bored...hehe sometime after i come back from school she will msg me hehe... that's all 4 today...

again 4get to post yesterday story. haiz... yesterday nothing special happen but only qayyum n the gang got problem so stressful like small kids uh... i want 2 help them to be friends again i hate when my classmates is like childish.(sry terpaksa ckp). haiz... i hope this will be alright tomorrow...


today story okey luh. morning assembly reading priod qayyum kena call by mr hafiz... haiz. so angry. then ikan kena scolded by i dk but i dk who say i juz say ..i dk is that true... then after school qayyum go detention until 4+ but i nvr wait 4 hym cause i hang out wif atiqah, dhabitah, hanifah n her fried hang out at bedok lib. 4+ atiqah, dhabitah n me go northpark then we go mama shop i treat them maggie n 1 big bottle of coke altogether is 5 dollar ++ then we ate @ the void deck near northpark. then go tamp. lib n open friendster, blog, tagged n facebook then 6.30 then go home. then go tamp. inter go mc n buy burger 4 my brothers n sisters at home.till here bye2 hehes...